For what it's worth

I don't write here nearly as much as I used to. But for what it's worth, I'm here now. I figure its a new year, and if I don't want it to turn out as awful as last year did, I should do things differently. I sit here, 10 days into the new year, still hopeful, still optimistic. 2009 is finally dead and gone and perhaps with it, so is my bad luck.

Thinking about the events that transpired in 09 makes me sick. I can't believe the person that I turned into and I can't even begin to imagine the hurt I brought upon the people I care for the most. However, in sincere, unarmed retrospect I find myself feeling grateful. I am who I am today thanks to the mistakes last year had in store for me.

This year will be cleaner, brighter and smarter. It will take me places I've never been and introduce me to people I've always wanted to meet but never knew I did. This year will be stronger, it will help me be the crutch for others instead of always being the one to need one. This year will keep its promise. I have to go sometime, I can't be a kid forever.